a real life, dead as it were, woman

ultra real skin on AFFORDABLE life size dummys three holes

fuck sams id rather fuck my near real woman

8 times because im bored

inbetween different maps in counterstrike

masturbation sex will become my cigarette breaks

7 minutes

if that

then the saga of cleaning her

id take her apart, fine the carefully hidden seams, take it apart carefully like an ipod

and wash off the dried semen, with a dishcloth

kneeling, running shorts round my shins, marigolds on, scrubbing, intense frown,

i loathe cleaning her

but its starting to smell

SHES

starting to smell

SHES smelling a bit

no, SHES smelling a bit though

dried semen, my GUILT encrusted

which one did you get?

the spanish looking one?

cool

COOL

like the one like the other one the girl

she left me

your girlfriend

in the future

tiny blond hairs on the upper arms attention to DETAIL

such detail SO worth it

sweat glands above her bottom as i bear my teeth and clench and i slid down shes reacting to me

sweat on her bottom as i make noises and faces like a singer doing exercised

me me me la la la to to to nah nah nah nah yo yo yo yofi fi fi fii

uuurgggghhh

my guilt wet

my guilt stain

my seeping wet clear stain with white globs of fear

im scared and i fear my fears and im guilt of nothing of being a nothing with not fearing anything accept that i dont FEAR NOTHINGNESS ENOUGH

and my sobbing comes easily at silly things and i dont HAVE THE ENERGY TO MOVE LIKE A FUCKING DOLE CUNT

i cant even clean her anymore i DONT CARE ABOUT THE SMELL IT SMELLS LIKE ME NOW

and shes slowly changes but SLOWLY SO SLOWLY

and she becomes dirty and i dont care for her and i dont shave her properly from the built IN HAIR IS GROWING and shes stubbly but it feels nice on my legs

like a SCRUBBING BRUSH scraping off the DEAD skin in the shower and i drag her around like teddy behind a girl in a nighties on the landing who couldnt sleep because of the MONSTER under the bed

in the bed

MY FUCKING

and i look at her cold dribble on her face and MY FACE IS LIMP and im staring back into a soft ULTRA REAL MODEL OF MYSELF

in my CUNT

and the world becomes a bedroom filled with gun shots and bursts of static drenched exclamations of YOU FUCKING HACKER!!!

NOOB CANNON

im out for the round

be quick leave her rag doll effected body over the chair, no secreting LUBE

dry cunt

my dirty dry Cunt

my dirty dry eyelids like tiny weights but such will power to stay awake and WASTE MY TIME

and a pointless conversation and NOTHING in particular to a faceparty SHIT

i want them to make a robot girl that will clean her own ultra soft real cunt and make me lloyd grossman soup

as i sit headphones microphone static bursts of anger gunshots and nice one mate unlucky

and i look at my robot girl making soup staring straight ahead into the cupboard

and i just sit there

looking at her

and i wince and feel a pleasure running from my calves up through my arse and spine

and i squeeze out a SHIT on the chair

and its a lump

beneath me